Writing for today’s prompt meant to let you all into a little secret part of me as my strongest and best resource is my independence.
While growing up, I was a shy child and would wait to be included in a group – be it cousins or friends. The wait would bear fruit sometimes, but most often not. It hurted but I chose to immerse myself in books or writing in a diary. It followed suit, that I earned the sobriquet of being snooty.
Slowly I morphed into an introvert but with very strong opinions and a mind of my own. I developed a I-don’t-care persona around me and became a quiet child, only speaking up when it was to stand up for myself or to make a point.
Over the years this trait cocooned me from a lot of hurt, though not loneliness. But how long could the pupa stay hidden?
My transformation into a social butterfly happened when I moved away from home to start my career in a strange new and glitzy city. Staying on my own gave me immense freedom to do things my way, even when it meant not knowing whether I was doing it the right way.
I realised it was my lack of confidence and self-esteem which made me shy as a child.
As an adult living independently, I learnt to spread my wings to do things I had not ever imagined I could or would do.
- Joined a workshop to learn the exotic dance form Salsa (never mind the two left feet)
- Cooked impromptu meals for 10 people (when I didn’t even cook for myself)
- Made friends on commutes (terribly long ones in a metro cities)
- Traveled alone at odd hours (even odder transports too)
- Drove a car in New Delhi (sans google maps) and wasnt shy to ask for directions from strangers
- Explored the nooks and corners of Delhi from Priya, Sarojini Nagar, Dili Haat, NGMA, museums, underground markets to theatre circuits of BCL, SiriFort, Kamani – all by myself
- Took up sketching classes in Lodhi garden
- Photography workshops wherein I explored some terrific Delhi monuments and spaces ( Humayun tomb, Jantar Mantar, Phool Mandi)
I evolved into an adventurous person, out to live her life to the fullest.The lack of company didn’t deter me from going to movies, shopping, enjoying a drive on a rainy day, or joining hobby classes.
In time,my status changed from being lonely to being on my own. I learnt to not get bored ever in my company. My biggest strength has been my independence and the confidence to harness it to live my life on my own terms.
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Today, I treat myself to a sunday brunch at my favourite cafe where it’s just me and my current read and a glass of my favourite vino!!!
Hola my readers – what did you of my biggest resource? What do you think is your greatest strength?