“Your writing sucks and people laugh behind your back at what you write!!!!!!”
Crushing? You bet your bottom dollar, it was. I was so heartbroken as it was said by a blogging
friend fiend who retaliated over a perceived misdeed/misspoken word by me for her. Without waiting to clarify anything, she declared me Brutus and assailed me with verbal taunts and jibes over whatsapp ( Can you beat that? I wish she had the guts to talk to me over the phone, at least), so I had it in writing. Writing, that I went back to read again and again till I was sick in the face.
Needless to say the budding friendship was kaput and also left me wary of any other blogger wanting to be “friends” – do you blame me?
Yeah I vented over it; probably to some big ears with even bigger mouths and well I don’t need to write what happened next!!!
I let her get to me with her barbs and switched off from writing. I kept telling myself I am on a break as I have just finished a very hectic blogging month (#AtoZchallenge 2017) and its ok to sit on my laurels.For you see, the one month of blogging in April saw some of the highest stats ever on my blog. I had nearly 3000 views on my blog posts which on average means a 100 views per day!
But I took her words to heart and began to doubt my worth as a writer! I know you are calling me Pathetic! by now. I would too 🙂
It was the announcement in June for Barathon 2017 (Blog-a-rhythm), that shook me out of my self-induced stupor and I decided to work on the prompts. At first, it took every ounce of my will power to delve into my writing zest and give it free rein to write again.
But to my joy, I found the posts easy peasy to write. Maybe because I wrote with a lot of heart and perhaps hurt!
The response and support of other bloggers in the blog fest was overwhelming. My stats were zooming like April and I couldn’t believe how much people connected with what I wrote about. My diatribe (and vitriol too, at times) was seen as honest and courageous expression.
I followed it up with another blog fest in July; #writebravely with WriteTribe where once again my writing was loved and appreciated.
Over the past two months, I have interacted and read lots of new bloggers with some amazing writing verve. And to be adjudged by such terrific peers, is endorsement enough!!
I have made a vow of sorts to not let anyone ever detract me from my writing. I may not be one of the greatest writers of the 19th or even the 20th century, but I am ME and my writing is unique and is straight from my heart. And thats what really matters at the end of the day!!
What do you think of my heart pouring today?
Surprised that I let her get to me?
Or empathise cause its a blogger eat blogger world?
Share some pearls of wisdom please!
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